Like a child she came hoping around joyfully, excited.
Extreme emotions always stops us from expressing ourselves in any way loud.
When there’s such laughter in the smile in front of your eyes…
How can there be no reflections?
Like a child she came hoping around joyfully, excited.
Extreme emotions always stops us from expressing ourselves in any way loud.
When there’s such laughter in the smile in front of your eyes…
How can there be no reflections?
Slowly but surely did your inflection soothe
Slowly but never surely did I move in close
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There was never a need on the other side
Of boundaries and wire fences to stop my stride
With fields as wide as my tongue could spell
To run and to explore and to dig around
Wandering around, a bit confused and surprised,
Eyes wide open, yet Into my own grave, I soon fell.
No helping hand is offered for me to get out
Just a smiling stare to see me crawl back out
I am just as welcome now to see around
If I can but dare to stand your silence and its mocking sound
Even though I knew every single line in the palm of my hand
I now understood, one can never know every single grain of sand
Some graves you must first lie in
If the dirt above you want to tread in
Into your books I have now again entered
A few of your pages I too have now gathered
~ These few lines I don’t write on purpose
for the poem, never should disturb the prose ~
The days drowsiness finally crawled over the night
As your voice it started to fade into your breath
Silence was louder now with the sounds of your whisper,
and my voice it was betrayed by the the faintest of quiver.
A few metal pieces fell off the skin of my face,
and my heart on it left the slightest trace.
And with such inhibitions that I now leave behind
Sit down, that perfect line of yours first to find.
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Slowly but never surely did my inflections soothe
Slowly but surely I did move in close.
In between a reality and a dream ~
With a little help from nature
I break realities and pass through them
unraveling memories, most cherished
yet slowly, even the wounds uncover
that laughter and that precious smile
slowly I walk deeper into the darker aisle
my sinister conscience and I, lost in between realities
the laughter burns the wounds to heal
through a window between my reality
I see you, small and meek
soft and vulnerable, just for my sake
looking up with all your innocence
weaker now, I caress you, playfully
the feeling of your grip,
my mind is lost for a second
jolted back by my shoulder
when your arms, my elbow they tug
how tender and pure
this feeling from your eyes
with back bent back, you submit to me
and just as sparkles a flicker of surrender
I stumble into the pits of my fear
a will to walk through the fire
and open my eyes with an understanding
beneath this thick layer
is a deeply wounded, sensitive skin
or pick up my knife
stab to defeat my stronger self
and wait for death by my own blood,
when with this blood, I put out the fire
in between realities, by fear am I, once again caught
and in this tricky space of darkness
I try and hide from a mean looking thought
it threatens to come to me and steal away my reality
and leave a thought, behind that insanity
was there nothing true and how deep did I fall ?
from when do I start and how far do I go back ?
and if I accept, shall I rejoice
that you don’t live there anymore..
I ask for confirmation, but it’s all dark here
I can’t see where I am going or what is it that I seek
not to be crushed by my own wall
this burden I seek to now free
and try to keep my sanity, till the end of this street
a nightmare I see when I wake up
try to force my way back to where I was once happy
but the dream is now broken and you fade away into my worst fear
that dream once broken just won’t take me back
how then shall I erase my scar from your hearts chain
and once again, how shall I make you believe
to wake up from your dream will be by my worst nightmare
Four the stones they looked apart
but in the laughter between them colliding
I could hear the music of where each of their songs start
and in this chaos are all four of us now swinging.
By only the second bottle does the fourth pebble fall
And as I drank from the stream, the sea it laughed about the river
Now the other two they danced in a separate hall
And above all our heads the night she seemed would stay forever…
I do not understand if I should call it a dream, for there was nothing abstract about it.
Looked straight through my cold eyes with its own warm gaze, dancing around the
faintest of metaphors.
I could now see those trodden dusty paths of sorrow,
I understood the confusion between my brows,
and I swallowed down tomorrow.
Just to know if my palms could feel, what my breath could no longer justify,
I held the wind by its shoulders, as it softly pushed me away.
Knowing now I would then be in regret,
still with bended knees, her doorway I crossed.
The stairs I was not allowed to climb,
But still, that gaze would hold me, by each limb.
Together to swallow our hunger, I could no longer stay
To later devour, this memory I could have, she’d say.
Conceived to enhance survival
yet evolved as a parasite.
’twas born to serve,
yet enslaved the very body.
The circle of my life,
will not be drawn
the other way round.
I am not,
for its purpose.
’tis for mine.
If not, without it
I am quite fine.
I have become
Like a dam that
Even when it’s full
Will not release the water
Instead I wait
Even at the risk of bursting
For the water to evaporate
Waiting to go dry
And then I wonder
Looking at these cracks
Was there ever even
Any water to hold?
your touch so soft
beneath thin skin.
the dreams in
those innocent eyes,
my heart it skips
over every doubt.
realization welcomes another smile
and however one may choose to try
there’s no escaping such innocence
and then soon the music too plays.
this child is sly
but so are sweet,
little girls.
glimpses of cunning mischief,
then a goddess dancing
on her god.
but the heart still longs
a while, little longer.
till all her fire
satisfies his gaze.
and perhaps hold back,
till just before a dance
but then that first sin,
of a kiss happens.
there’s no leaving now
silence may heave.
once more the air
it is nostalgic.
the music fades into a déjà vu
tell me, did we dance too ?
now its such,
a beautiful day.
the music,the waves they play.
see that spotlight
in the sky.
under the night
and her moon,
why its the stars
and the blue black sky.
you throw a stone
up into the air,
without looking
to where it strayed.
across the fields
the fog is smoking,
in the scent of the air.
sounds of an orchestra,
frogs & critters playing
and in some corner,
a group of birds too.
in the deep silent lake
the blue sky sits still.
in between conversations
moments pass by.
just like an old memory
the stone just slips by.
only a glimpse
without a clue,
is what you
manage to catch.
ripples of that memory
in time they trace
back to you,
silent & patient
if you can wait.